If I weren't absolutely sure that I'm NOT pregnant I'd be sure that I am. I've been acting like a crazy woman for the passed few days. All I can say to anyone who has talked to me within those days is I AM SORRY!!! I'm just not in a stable state right now! Being sick has probably contributed most to my breakdown. When ever I get sick I start wanting EVERYTHING right now! Esspecially my Mom. Whaaa! I need you! Yesterday was the worst. I asked Kyra to tidy up her room and she freaked out about it so I freaked out about it and did it for her...that never turns out well. Sure, her room is clean, cleaner than it's been since we moved into this house. But where did all those things go? (well, actually I organized it all and put them in jail...I'm too frugal to throw it all away. BUT, I did get rid of a lot of toys that I find laying around all the time and never get played with...I know that statement shouldn't make sense!) She is so much like me poor girl. That pout she has on her face so often...mine. Those emotions that run wild at any given moment...mine. That hair that no matter how often we brush still looks stringy and unkept...mine. Those gorgeous lips and eyes...her Dad's.
So, back to my needing EVERYTHING right now! I've decided we are moving to Utah. I need to be near my family right now! I need my kids to be around their Grandparents, Aunts and Uncles and Cousins right now! I need to see the changing of the leaves in the fall right now! I need to feel that chilly morning air right now! I need to look forward to a snowfall soon...right now! I need to be able to breath RIGHT NOW!!!
So, goodbye TEXAS, I'm already gone! (even though we're not actually leaving. *sigh)
5 comments:
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haha Your funny. You got my hopes up! I was wanting you to move to Holladay. Have Jerms get into the U. It's betta. I was looking forward to taking your kids to the park, because I can't go alone, lame. haha
K so here's a random thought. I think you need more pictures of you on your blog. Im trying to find some fun pictures of you to play around with on photoshop, and there is always a child in the way! :) just a suggestion
Wow, do I know that feeling. I think I have had an epidsode like that weekly starting the very first day we moved to Texas. I was balling my eyes out while we unloaded the trailer! We've been here a little over a year now, and fortunatley I've made enough visits to keep me sane. All I can say is "I know how you feel"!
hmmm, jail... I like that idea.
if you moved to Utah right now you'd miss the changing of the leaves anyway since it's snowing there. guess you'll have to stay.
sorry you had a sucky day.
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