AM I NUTS!?

Last week Jeremy and I were talking about whether we should add another member to our family.

WHAT!?

Yes. You read that right. Well, I have been battling with myself on this issue. On the one hand, I came from a large family and I wouldn't have it any other way and sometimes wonder how it would be if there were only 4 of us instead of 9 and I think, how boring! (and since I'm #6 I wouldn't be included in the 4 haha!) I love having 4 brothers and 4 sisters. Then on the other hand I think I can barely manage the little dears that I have, a big change is coming for us this summer which will limit our income incredibly, and then there is the more vain and selfish feelings of I don't want to be wretchedly sick for so long again and gain all that weight and be back in diapers and really just start all over again. I'm terrible I know.
How is one supposed to know when to stop and not feel guilty over it? Especially when this type of conversation goes on with the 4 yr old.
Mom, we need to buy a baby.
Oh really? Where should we get one?
I think you need to buy it at the hospital.
Oh. Well should we buy one after we move?
No. We should buy one tomorrow.
Well the baby needs to grow inside the Mommy for a long time.
Yeah, so the Mommy can get fat.
(insert laughter here) Yes, the Mommy needs to get fat first.
But you're not fat yet Mom.
Thank you.
You're welcome.

And just before this conversation takes place, the 2 yr old cries out (while I'm trying to buckle her in her car seat) "I'm not a baby everywhere Mommy!"
*tear
And she's not. Which is a bittersweet thing.

So this week has been crazy. Just not crazy in the way it usually is. Change is good right? Right???

I'm nuts. :S